MultiPotentialite

Damn that's a mouthful. Still, it's a mouthful that just helped ease 15 plus years of anxiety. The shortest definition I can think of is this: A person who has many interests and pursuits. Basically, I've got too many things going on in my head and the idea of picking one career makes me wanna drown myself.

For a very long time I thought there was something wrong me. To be honest, I still do. Just a bit. However, after reading Puttylike's article and watching the Ted Talk on the subject of Multipotentiality ( I honestly hope that's a word), I feel a bit more at ease.

When I was younger, I wanted to be a ballet dancer. I loved the music, the style and grace of it all ,and frankly, if given the opportunity now, I would be freakin' excited. However, I also loved to read and the idea of writing my own stories amazes me. Even then, I always loved movies and music, especially the theatre and animated films, due to the fact that I was completely enamored by art. I'm guessing you're starting to see my problem.

The question of what I wanted to be or do when I got older always fills me with dread. I've never wanted to do one thing, and also, I get bored really easily. What if I pick something and a few years down the line hated it due to boredom? My whole life and style of thinking has always been a series of what ifs and what the hell is wrong with mes. Everyone always seemed to know at least which direction they wanted tot go. People who liked to read went on in one direction, while people who liked to solve problems went in another. However, for someone who loves reading, drawing, animation, music, film making, video editing, debating, the occasional math problems and loads of other stuff, life seems to be a long journey composed of Bite Me In The Ass.

That was until just a few moments ago, before I saw the Ted Talk video. I'm still a bit unsure about what I'm going to do with my life, but just knowing that I'm not lazy, or flaky or stupid, brings a lot of relief. I'm studying Law and Human Rights now in Uni, and frankly, 95 per cent of the time, I want to pull my hair out and feed it to a lecturer. Though, if I'm honest, even though I knew that life wasn't really a narrow road where I had to do one thing, it still sucked not knowing which side of the road to walk on, especially such a big ass road. That's part of what makes me dread and doubt my course.

Now that I know there's nothing wrong with me, I feel free and clear headed for the first time in a very long time. It feels awesome.